Sometimes we feel bad for the decisions we make that will let others down, worrying very little about the decisions we make that let ourselves down.
I've always found myself doing this, to some degree or another, my reasoning being that I shouldn’t be so selfish.
Oh how selfish to do things that make me happy. Boo!
How about no? Us women, particularly, have to stop feeling guilty for satisfying the needs in ourselves that we so eagerly seek to satisfy in others.
What I find the most peculiar, at least in my personal life, is that I’ve never considered myself a 'people pleaser’. Generally, those are the sorts of people that get overworked/under-appreciated, and blatantly used. But that’s not me! So why do I keep feeling like a big part of my day is spent doing things other people want to do?
Because I’m a trooper, that’s why! I’m one of those people that always thinks, "I can take this,” even when no one else can/does. Or, “no one else is going to do it, so I must!” Urban dictionary defines “trooper” as anyone who exhibits extreme perseverance, fortitude, and tenacity, and deep down, I know I love being this way. I love being the odd person, the one that cares too much about something or the one that gets hung up on the details. But it has dawned on me that at some point I’ll need to take a step back and worry more about myself. It’s a fine line between coming off as selfish and feeling like you’re selling your soul. One that I haven't learned to walk yet, but I will!
Have any of you ever felt this way?
If so, how do you cope? What have been your resolutions and journey to walking the fine line?