On Saturday night I was reading an article about things that people have regretted in their lives. Now, you're probably saying, as was I, "I don't regret anything in my life because every experience in it has molded me into the person I am now!" Yeah, I totally agree, but there was one story about a woman who regretted not answering the phone when her grandmother called because she was "too busy with my own life" and the next day her grandmother passed away. Now, maybe I was feeling sentimental, maybe it's because my boss passed away recently, but it really struck a cord because I'm not very close to my grandmother but she is the last I have alive and as she gets further into her elder years, I often wonder about my reaction to her future passing. Honestly I can't even explain why I was so compelled to call her and tell her that I love her, specially considering I have such a difficult time showing affection, but I did and it made her (and me) very happy.
End of story, right? Well what happened next was what this post is actually about.
Not even a second after hanging up, I got a phone call from an "unavailable" number, it rings, I answer, silence.
Now, I'm not a strong believer, I don't even consider myself spiritual, but there was something about that call, it made me feel like the universe was trying to tell me something. A slight nod letting me know that putting myself in an uncomfortable situation (not bad, just something I wouldn't normally do) had paid off. And that's what I want to take from that.
I'm often so afraid of doing things that don't "sync" with my personality that I'm blinded to being my own impediment. I avoid situations that could possibly benefit me as a person because I'm afraid of feeling uncomfortable. And that's childish, isn't it? Maybe that’s why I find so much meaning in that "unavailable" call, because it genuinely felt like my personal "ah ha" moment. Something clicked, and I will always have my grandmother to thank for that.